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Archive for October 14, 2008
Cracks Appear
Oct 14th
I know I haven’t really posted about graduation or my job predicament or anything truly life related but I’m starting to break. I decided I’d try out where my dad lives (GA) for awhile. I graduated and left my home of 22 years to try life down south. I knew I’d be better off financially than back up north. In high school, I never knew my life would become so filled with happiness and that all those years of torment and dark thoughts planted by hateful teenagers would become a very distant memory. College was amazing. I discovered so much about myself and realized there is still so much more to learn. It was a bubble for sure, but a bubble that I played in and had so much fun. I made so many friends that it’s weird to walk around for a whole day and not know one face. It was a lot to take in at first. I had so much and then suddenly, when I moved, I had nothing. It’s hard starting over. That’s a big understatement. It’s devastating, really. My first 4 weeks down here, I’ve never had my heart hurt like that. I felt and still do feel quite alone here. I have virtually no friends and I don’t find a point to anything that I do. It’s a substance-free existence. I don’t know how much more of this I can really take. I’m waiting for something. I don’t even know what. I pull myself together to break down every so often. I’m an old car and the engine is going.
I miss home. I miss the smell. The feel of it. I feel like a stranger here. I don’t belong.
OK, whoa whoa whoa Apple. Stop…
Oct 14th
OK, whoa whoa whoa Apple. Stop this madness. Now I really need a fulltime job. To get a new MacBook Pro!
True Blood
Oct 14th
OMG. First off, love the show. I give shows chances, especially if they are new. There’s a lot of sex in True Blood which kind of turned me off at first but I think vampires have been portrayed as sexual for awhile now. A lot of the sex happens without vampires but I’ve come to look past it.
Episode 6, entitled Cold Ground just aired and it was amazing! Absolutely superb! The acting was fantastic. The storyline was great. I was shocked, brought to tears and at certain points, was giggling. That’s quite an emotional journey and I don’t often cry OR laugh at film/tv. Ugh, it was just great. I highly reccomend this series.
love, love, love True Blood! E…
Oct 14th
love, love, love True Blood! Episode 6 was the best. Great acting all around. Superb job.


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